Parenting in a pandemic is relentless. It's always pretty intense when your children are small, but knowing with certainty there will be no support or relief is. . . wearing. I'm never terribly receptive to older moms who urge me to "cherish these days" because "they go so fast" and "here's the tip that worked perfectly in my clearly erroneous memory." But now I'm straight up sour about it. Because no American parent of past yet living generations has raised feral little monsters during a global pandemic. And it's a different beast. The trials are often the same, but the difference is you could plan/forsee/hope for moments of actual relief. There were babysitters. Preschool. Nursery. Playdates. Indoor playgrounds. Running errands wasn't an act of wanton selfish riskiness.
Here's a little peek into my life. Some relevant context: My medication has wreaked havoc on my already deeply flawed digestive system and I spend quality time with the commode every day. Also, I like to shower once a day like a monstrously selfish narcissist. This can take up to ten minutes if we include a quick hair dry and putting on clothing. Maybe fifteen if the hedonism gets out of control. I also sometimes change the laundry or answer the doorbell. Thus there are instants when my children can be quite certain that they are not being closely observed. Mayhem ensues.
Yesterday a workman asked me to open my garage door so he could deliver a shower door to be installed later. In my utter carelessness I obliged and this meant at least 60 seconds I wasn't staring at my child. In this time Patrick left the math assignment we'd been laboring through for twenty minutes to found some mischief to entertain himself on his school iPad. This is constant. If I am not staring at his screen during school time, it is not on school. Period.
I starve my children. I feed them only three robust meals a day, like some kind of sadist who rejoices in watching deprivation. So every time I go to the bathroom Fred darts to work. I'll just make a list of some of the crap that has happened this week when my back was briefly turned:
Drawing on the walls, twice
Drawing on the arm chair
Drawing on two couches (different occasions)
Hiding behind the arm chair to eat chocolate
Hiding behind the arm chair to eat Cheetos
Hiding behind the arm chair to eat a loaf of sandwich bread
Hiding behind the arm chair to eat conversation hearts
Hiding behind the arm chair to eat Circus Animal cookies
Fred biting P hard enough to draw blood
Fred scratching P hard enough to draw blood
P constantly punching F
Boys throwing rubbermaid boxes with books in them down the stairs
Peeing on the floor, removing pee soaked clothes and leaving them in the pool and walking away without informing anyone about this
Pulling all the clothes out of the dresser and piling them on the floor
I just spent quality time rearranging the kitchen so all food is locked behind doors and going through the entire house finding and locking away every writing implement. Naturally he'll find more, but over time as I confiscate these hopefully the art projects will end and I will have stifled his creative spirit.